Clitimony from Niquita from South Africa

"Anxiety and stress have filled up the spaces around me lately and I’ve been overwhelmed with this unshakable sense of urgency. Entering into a new season feels exciting but also comes with huge financial, spiritual, emotional and physical preparation. I’ve had two anxiety attacks in my life, both have occurred within the last 2 years. The first was when I was stuck in Namibia and had to return back to Australia due to circumstances outside of my control. The other being last week when I had decided to quit a job that I felt didn’t align with my spiritual or mental well-being. This has resulted in physical aches, fatigue and a distrust of self.

When the stresses of the mind makes its way into the body the first thing we let go of is our need for pleasure in order to make space for anxiety. I’ve allowed myself to submit to the stress and ignored my body entirely only creating further heartache, pain and shame.

My body has felt heavy and I’ve struggled to see it’s beauty lately. Self pleasure and masturbation started to feel like a chore. I felt detached. My spiritual practice had little to no place in my day to day. After my eye surgery yesterday I felt even worse: I can’t work, drive or even turn the lights on.

Today, I’ve been intentional in seeking to reconnect to my body as more than just a physical vessel but a spiritual entity that doesn’t require perfection of any kind.

I am divine. I am flawed. I am whole. I am not my anxiety. I am beautiful.

Today my body demands rest. I’m dancing with the lights off and my eye patch fully intact.

I’m coming home to my essence of sensuality and loving every part of this incredible human experience.

Light, dark and wild.

If you can relate to any of this I stand with my heart in agreement and my hand extended. Join me in reclaiming dominion over your own mental, spiritual and physical well-being

from my heart to yours 🕊"